Friday, May 14, 2010

The Battle Begin

I can almost see it
That dream that I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
Cause I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
And somebody's GONNA HAVE TO LOSE

Keep on moving
Keep on climbing
It's all about the climb

1. Over this past 2 weeks, after having several 'pain', several complication to my health and awareness, I've been completely knocked down by it. Some guts tells me to quit. Yep, feeling that I didn't have anything left to fight on. Helpless, nothing productive can be done by me.

2. It wasn't just because of this reason. What's more, I've been dealing with this such thing since 2006. Almost 3 years being versus with, and yet I didn't get any victory. Failures and more failures emerged. Thus, I think I should let it win over.

3. But then, what I most worried about, is Ummi and Abah. How could I told them such thing? They've being fighting it too. Not forgetting how much money did they spend to keep me study.

4. Other that that, if I quit, seems like there will be a big L on my head. The great fighter ever known by others is end to be a loser. Then how could I face the world?

5. One night, those words above comes. Telling me to keep climbing.

6. My journey may had been long enough. From matriculation, to UTHM, then to Mafraq, and suddenly, now. Though, I'm ready if it will be longer. Promised my self, that I'll end this story no matter what. Even it takes me years and old, try me!

7. Thus, I'm begging on my knees towards YOU. Yes you. To my dear Ummi and Abah. Please bare to wait. Please bare to fight along. Even all my colleagues had become someone, and I, still holding on books and pens, do wait.

8. For those who ever since want to against me, come, lets do the battle!


aisyah said...

keep on moving dear sis!

.n.a.k. said...

salam.. kak shee~ a very inspiring entry..
well... the words 'there are always another mountain' are very touching...
it seems like saying 'there are always hope as long as we ask from Allah'

i'm agree with you that you've been very far to quit!! let's finish it together!!

coz there are many people who are fighting for what they are suppose to fight for....
even we can't be strong for the sake of everyone, but amass our strength for the sake of those who need us..

Ya Allah, let us be strong with Islam!! amin...

(I love u so much.. and very happy with dis entry..and very inspiring me)

Siti fatimah bt ismail said...

kak shie boleh!!insyaALLAH..
don't ever look back kak shie..

"Allah tidak akan membebani seseorang kecuali dengan kemampuannya.."(surah al-baqarah:286)

walaupun mmg besar ujian dari Allah untuk k.shie,tapi..semua takkan sia2!!ada ganjaran untuk setiap detik yang k.shie lalui dengan kesabaran dan mujahadah yang tinggi..

k.shie boleh!!!!!!!!!!!!
jadi pakar ONG!!!!!
islam memerlukannya...

"Adakah kamu mengira bahawa kamu akan masuk ke syurga,padahal belum datang kepadamu cubaan seperti yang dialami orang-orang terdahulu sebelum kamu?Mereka ditimpa kemelaratan,penderitaan,dan digoncang(dengan pelbagai cubaan) sehingga Rasul dan orang-orang beriman bersamanya berkata"Bilakah akan datang pertolongan Allah?" Ingatlah,SESUNNGGUHNYA PERTOLONGAN ALLAH ITU DEKAT"(Al-baqarah:214)

selamat berjuang k.shie.
uhibbuki fillah.
Moga ALLAH temukan kita semua di syurga..

syphoon said...

Allah yusahhil 'alaik!

Jangan putus asa daripada Rahmat Allah SWT. Semoga terus kuat dalam menghadapi ujian yang bakal mendatang ini.

the remedy said...

kite same la kak shee...
that song always lingering on my head laa whenever i feel down...
n sumbang something for ISLAM...

dR dReamLoVeR said...

kak she! private united!!!!!! kita fight brsame2!!

raihana_shakespeare-2-be said...

why Allah create such mountain, mountain that's high that never a man would imagine to land on its peak..??

but today, which mountain is called high unreached?

significantly, so does life and its-up-and-low..
there are times, we'll feel the ups are too high to reach even with our tip,
but, even if it took thousand years it's reachable..

just strive and strive.coz this every step we cradled is paid, insyaAllah.

Shazwani Mazuki said...

Dear syie..

get through it as you always do..try your best and i know you can..my prayer will always be with you..

motivate yourself,and do not drowned in your feeling..

Allah will always be with you..

Najwa Aiman said...

quitting is a matter of such a rubbish thing.. [kate2 dr 1 of Allah's servant]..

keep moving, keep climbing..

bcoz we r not the losers..
we ar not the losers to d one dat should lose.. it's not us..

let's climb the mountains together until we reach d top of d mountains..
never turn back..
until u can build a big castle on the top of the mountains.. [bleh ek? heee]

go2 sys!
kite ade 1 ruh pjuangan yg same..
pjuangan yg x kan kalah pd kebatilan!!

'KAMI' adik2 1 ruh pjuanganmu ada dcni..

Syahida Majid said...

Sorry fellas, ust wait till late nite to reply your wonderfull coments. Internet here should be renamed as SIPOT

Along: Thaks dear, bulan 6 nanti mai la Joden. Ajak mekaneh, ha, ammar and IB (kalo knal, ehee)

Nad : You were the 1st one knows bout the quitting issue. Nak quit Az Zikr, nak quit medic. So thanks, you always be my shoulder and ears.

Tam : Lepas dengar kata K.Ain, ONG sangat banyak isu fiqh, aku pikir balik nak jadi ke tak.. Huhu. Nanti la, banyaaak masa lagi

Tuan Syafiq : Thank you bos. You too.

Cik Ripah : Jom!!

Nana masin : Iya, jangan kasi malu pribet united! Takkan kalah dengan JPA dan MARA!

My future hosmet : Bcause ur words are like Shakespere, thus, I cant understand. :p

K.Wani : Trimas k.Wani, akak sangat selalu memberi semangat kat Syi. I miss u!

Wawa Emang : Bukan adik, tapi adik beradik. Kita kan sobayaa

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